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Lost in it all by QuietLittleLeaf Lost in it all by QuietLittleLeaf
Thankyou everyone, I cannot believe this honor. I've been shedding tears over everyone's praise of this...and it's fitting that the most personal piece I've ever made is the one to touch so many ppl; odd how that works. :blush: You have no idea how much I wish more were known about epilepsy, and although I have only had a short brush with it...I feel for all those who battle with it on a daily basis. Once again, thank you so much for DD, I'm sitting here stunned.

A cathartic piece expressing my tiring relationship with my body.
It's quite personal, but I felt it was worth sharing...since I don't do a lot of opening up to anyone, and art says what worse cannot.
Although Ill admit to having it quite good healthwise, between my epilepsy meds making me tired, my IBS limiting what I eat and making food frustrating, and that little voice in my head still ruining my self-worth..I get quite exhausted.

Drawing always pushes my demons back when they start getting the best of me though. I generally try to keep a positive outlook on life, but when things get tough I honestly don't know how people with harder illnesses cope. I just felt this a good representation of my mood lately: longing for some sunshine, and peace and quite. Thankfully my smile is back in full swing with spring finally blossoming, but this is a good reminded of all those ups and downs in life.

As for the illustration the pose is meant to look a little contorted. I'm quite happy with how the lighting turned out...though Im still kind of unhappy with the shading on the back. I think this is as far as I want to take it though. :)

Thank you again for your comments and support!!! :love:
Sketched and painting in photoshop with a bamboo tablet
10 hours
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Daily Deviation

Given 2013-05-19
From the suggester: "As someone with epilepsy this piece expresses the hopelessness I've felt towards the condition, and I believe it wonderfully portrays this emotion to those without it with the contorted pose and her expression of vulnerability."

Lost in it all by ~jessyr ( Suggested by Nichrysalis and Featured by Thiefoworld )
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Nichrysalis Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I still come back to this piece. :heart:
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QuietLittleLeaf Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Your too wonderful, thanks again for promoting this. ^.^ I look back on it every once in a while too, it's a nice reflection piece. :)
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Nichrysalis Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Welcome. :huggle:
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Angie-Pictures Featured By Owner May 20, 2013
Beautiful work! Congratulations on the DD! :iconflowerheartplz:
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erdemten Featured By Owner May 20, 2013  Student Photographer
elektirik good :D
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mattiuw Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Wow!!!! Really good!!!
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Karinta Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Student General Artist
I see so well now what those with epilepsy go through. Thanks for bringing this feeling through art to so many people who don't experience what you do.




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VenneccaBlind Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Congratulations on your DD! This is a very moving and touching piece and worthy of more than just DD status. I really want to encourage you to show and promote this piece wherever you live also! I understand that it is personal for you, but it illustrates so well the connection you have with other people. No one is perfect and we all struggle with our bodies and self image. In different ways sometimes, but this piece is open to whatever way may fit best for the viewer and I think thats why so many people are praising it and connecting with it. You have spoken so well to your audience and created MEANING! Your skill is incredible and your shading (even on her back) is beautiful.

I suffer from fibromyalgia and IBS myself. I usually dont look at the DDs but I saw this piece and just connected with it, even in the thumbnail. You have displayed the struggle with ones self, form, and mind perfectly. I wish I could praise this more!
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QuietLittleLeaf Featured By Owner May 20, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thankyou soo much. Im getting a little more courage to share it with everyone I know from all the positive comments. The nudity makes me think it'll be a little awkward for some that know me...but Im thinking that will get looked passed for the message/content matter. :)
The stories shared here have made me realize we all have our demons/problems and my feelings of being alone in it are mostly perceived.

Hopefully your getting along alright with everything too. :hug: It can be tough when we're dragging our feet and others are running along happily.
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VenneccaBlind Featured By Owner May 20, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
I know what you mean. we have to count our "spoons" every day...

and i think that even with the nudity, people will see the message you created above all, even if they have never imagined you naked before :3
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ecfield Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
A fine piece of art that is more than just a pretty picture. Thank you so much for sharing it.
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mrknifey Featured By Owner May 19, 2013
i love the tension in the foreleg. really beautiful piece, especially given the intended subject. well deserving of a DD;)
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QuietLittleLeaf Featured By Owner May 20, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thankyou. It was tough making it look awkward, but not too weird; Im glad it turned out as well as it did. :) <3
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mrknifey Featured By Owner May 21, 2013
definately worked out great:)
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wdnest Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Professional Writer
Wonderful work. I am glad that more awareness pieces are turning up. As a person with epilepsy, it is important that we recognise the contributions of art work to helping with this condition. Congrats on your DD! Wonderful work.
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DarkVioletCloud Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is so beautiful... You did a fantastic job!
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PhoenixDestruction Featured By Owner May 19, 2013
This a fantastic feature for a Daily Deviation. :huggle: Good work!
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Rockin-billy Featured By Owner May 19, 2013
simply electrifying, (Someone hads to say it) :D
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QuietLittleLeaf Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Lol, true enough. :giggle:
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Rockin-billy Featured By Owner May 20, 2013
:D
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WithinBlack Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i can understand what you must have been feeling when you made this as i too suffer from epilepsy. but i'm also glad you decided to dedicate this wonder piece of work to the subject as so many people don't even know what epilepsy is. thx :)
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QuietLittleLeaf Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks! I'm amazed how much of the community here has firsthand experience with it all, so I definitely feel at home. Hopefully it's not treating you too badly either.
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WithinBlack Featured By Owner May 20, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Well I have good days and bad days but I'll survive
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magigrapix Featured By Owner May 19, 2013
This is a fantastic piece of art.

The raw emotion, and the intensity of the lightening intermingling with your tears and incasing you in a caccoon really tells what you go through with your as you put it personal deamons and depression.

A wonderful piece of expressive art, truley inspirational.
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TheGalleryOfEve Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Congratulations on your well-deserved DD!!! :iconflyingheartsplz::iconlainloveplz::iconflyingheartsplz: :clap::clap::clap:
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StrawberryR Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Her left foot looks really...crushy looking. I think it might need to be elongated a little more. D:

Other than that, this is a totally beautiful piece. Very well executed.
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Keeshaba Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I, too, have epilepsy. I also suffer from extreme anxiety, which means I don't leave my house very often. Which means no job, no insurance, no meds. I've been without seizure meds for 4 years now. All I can do is take it one day at a time, but I'm fading away. This piece is so touching to me. I feel trapped, not only by my epilepsy, but by everything. Bravo on portraying such an emotional piece.
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The-Golden-Knight Featured By Owner May 19, 2013
Hey, I know it's all hard (you have it worse than me, and even I get challenges from time to time), but as far as I can tell, it sounds like you're doing fine! :hug:
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jbdestiny Featured By Owner May 19, 2013
Incredible... Congrats on the DD
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Starseeker6996 Featured By Owner May 19, 2013
Love the image :-) ... although I cannot fathem how live is when having an epilepsy :-(
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VEFV Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Student General Artist
awesome!! congratulations for the DD!! :D
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Xadrea Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
I lost a family friend to epilepsy 7 years ago :( This is a very touching piece, bravo :clap:
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maironmatos Featured By Owner May 19, 2013
Very beautiful!
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kaburninator Featured By Owner May 19, 2013
what was lost?
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QuietLittleLeaf Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
The title is just reffering to how a condition can sometimes become who you are, its more a metaphor for how life is right now for me...overwhelming.
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kaburninator Featured By Owner May 19, 2013
why?
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enigmaticsmile Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
The story behind it makes it even more amazing. Thank you for sharing with us. :)
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Neville6000 Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
If this shows what you really are as a person, then you are one hot sexy mama, and you shouldn't put yourself down so much-great and amazing work.
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QuietLittleLeaf Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
heh, thanks. I do see beauty a lot of the times...but those demons sometimes sneak up on you and make you think the worst. :)
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ThePathOfDreams Featured By Owner May 19, 2013
Epilepsy is no trivial thing, unfortunately. :-( I admire your courage! I wish I could help you somehow....
This is a wonderful and touching piece of art! It somehow imprints itself in my memory....
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niekitty Featured By Owner May 19, 2013
*kittyhug*
thank you for sharing this. :)
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Alkraas Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Congratulations on the DD :hug:
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doublethefun Featured By Owner May 19, 2013
I love this!!
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doozle-lange Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
i missed the halo but saw the lightning 'tears' under each eye and running down her face. The lightning glow is stunning. Nude is positive to me. taking all off to bare yourself. This is me. I have progressive memory loss from 21 years alcohol abuse (wet brain) i can relate to getting exhausted. for me emotionally, mentally and physically.
I enjoy your mood 'sunshine and peace and quiet' I am in agreement with you on those moods. Peace be yours.
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QuietLittleLeaf Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thankyou!! Yeah there are always a few ppl that dig a little too deep into the nudity and why...I always find it simply expresses exposing honesty...and who you truely are. :)
Hopefully you've found some peace too. Life isn't quite as romantic and beautiful as your brought up to believe (movies, parents) so its definitely tough adjusting when you have to; I find the downs in life make the ups so much more meaningful and enjoyable.
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doozle-lange Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
yes, I agree with you. and the memories that i have lost are being replaced by sober ones. DOS 3/1/02 thank you for sharing your talent.
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SaimGraphics Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Brilliant Idea
Nicely Conceived
Congrats on DD
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Nichrysalis Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I am absolutely delighted to see that this received a DD. :love:

I love and am reminded and saddened by the subtle details in this piece that relate to everything you explain this piece to be in the description. Like *tisbore, I was instantly drawn to her eyes and the electricity representing the epilepsy as overpowering by being present all over her body (as opposed to the head). But what really does it for me with the electrical bits, is that she has a halo, and this leaves me with a sense of hope despite seeing her expression of despair and contorted pose that is somewhat reminiscent of someone seizing. She is most contorted in her limbs: her calf, feet, and hands are all very apparently tensing and seizing, but her body, face and head is not, which to me, suggests that these afflictions are more outwardly affecting than inwardly, more physical handicaps than mental or emotional, and not as permanent as they appear or feel.

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QuietLittleLeaf Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Thankyou so much, for the comment and the DD suggestion. I've been shedding some tears over everyone's praise of this...and it's fitting that the most personal piece I've ever made is the one to touch so many ppl; odd how that works. :blush:

Your comments are pretty spot on...the condition becomes a part of you, and like now with things under control its there and still a part of me, but not who I am. I felt there wasn't a lot of art seriously showing anyone's experience with it either, so hopefully this brings a deeper understanding for viewers. :) The halo and tears were mostly to show how emotional it is for people too. It makes you reevaluate how much control you have over your life, and what consciousness is. But yes, you learn to live with your body...and realise that this thing called 'normal' doesn't really exsist; each person has their own issues, troubles, and talents and grows immensely therefrom.
Thankyou again. You've made my summer. :hug:
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Nichrysalis Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I know the feeling. My most personal works which evoke so much from me seem to connect to others as well. It's a wonderful feeling.

But yes, you learn to live with your body...and realise that this thing called 'normal' doesn't really exsist;

Did you realize how poetic that sounded when you wrote it? :nod:
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